My Perfect Order

I woke up the same as I always did, yet at the same time completely different. The curtain had been drawn back by the same being as always.
"Time to wake up Bo-chan." He would whisper leaning over the bed, blocking the direct sunlight.
I would yawn and give a slight groan as muscles began to work and pop getting use to movement again. Stepping from the warm covers and sheets to the cold winter's air.
"You know that you no long require sleep, right Bo-chan?" He would ask as he began to get me dress for the day.
"Of course. You needn't to repeat yourself every morning." I would mutter as I glanced away from him catching myself in my vanity mirror. Seeing my once blue eyes flash that glowing red that had been accustomed to demons.
Yes, I Ciel Phantomhive have become a demon!
I remained the Queen's lapdog, yet only until I grew bored, as Sebastian one day said I would.
I continued with my lessons, to put on a charade to fool the others. Bard, Finny, Maylene, and Takana, for some reason, I don't believe those four aren't as dumb as they let on. I believed they were just playing along as well.
Dress, breakfast, study, lunch, the recent mission from the Queen, dinner, bath, then bed, the same schedule day in and day out.
"Young Lord have you not understood the killer's motives?" He questions, the words coming from that devious smirk, meaning he already knew.
"Apparently a Jack the Ripper knock off." I scoffed glancing over the papers. "If I'm correct, then we should be able to capture him tonight."
Sebastian gave me a smirk, how that smirk could have meant so many things.
We  sat in the dark, alleyway, with another guest. The shinigami Grell Stucliff. He had let himself tag along, saying that he had to uphold his pride as the original Jack the Ripper, and the way  he hung all over Sebastian, it must have shown that I didn't care for his company.
"Is there a problem?" Sebastian asked
I turned away, to hide the blush I knew was visible on my face.
"Bo-chan do you feel all right? You seem quite flushed." He asked pressing his forehead against mine.
"It's cold out here." I growled pushing him away.
"He's right Sebby, forget about that kid, come be with a real woman." I heard Grell call from the other side of Sebastian.
How I couldn't wait for this to be over. That feeling again was happening. The same feeling I got from when I was human. The feeling I yet to understand or act upon. Something I hadn't felt since my parents were alive. I had grown so accustomed to him, that he had became a part of me, something I couldn't let go. Much like a shadow.
By the time everything was settle, Grell taking the soul away, and I finishing the Queen's mission, it had began to snow. It was only a matter of time anyway, seeming that the black sky had turned a slight gray.
Sebastian being the caring, thoughtful butler he is decided to carry me home. I was perfectly capable of walking myself.
"If you taught me to fly we wouldn't have to walk through this stuff." I scoffed arms crossed over my chest as I nuzzled into my coat.
"All in due time, Bo-chan. It seems that you've grown lighter." He replied. "I would think with all of those sweets you would have been heavier."
"Shut up!" I barked turning into his shoulder, anyone passing by would have thought I was just seeking shelter from the harsh winds.
Yet in all honesty it was to be close. The only being, the only person I would allow to touch me was a demon! The same as I am now.
"Bo-chan…" He whispered hauntingly, I could feel that smirk against my hair.
Did he know what he was doing!?
"Bo-chan?" He called again. "Are you awake? My…"
I quickly silenced him, placing my hands on the side of his head. Staring directly into his eyes. The look he gave me was one of shock. Never fear, it was never fear.
"Are you toying with me?!" I hissed both our eyes flashing red.
Sebastian stood there, his entire face exposed to mine as I pushed his bangs out the way. Then that smirk appeared.
"I would never."
I groaned angrily, placing my face against his shoulder again, My arms wrapped around his neck.
"Hurry home. The temperature dropping." I managed against his coat sleeve.
  "Yes, my Lord-o."
The walk home remained in silence, besides Sebastian's footsteps on the fresh building snow.
Dinner and my bath continued in the same manner. Only a few words where uttered between the two of us.
It was then I realized that tomorrow was my birthday. Or do demon's even celebrate such trivial things?
I thought about how tomorrow, Elizabeth, my dear cousin, Lizze would send something, to celebrate it. We haven't truthfully spoken to one another since the Trancy fiasco. With every right I had no reason to blame her for not wanting to speak with me.
I broke off our engagement, as much as I loved her, I wasn't in love with her. I never was and now it was impossible to be. But I did love her enough to let her go. She was adorable and sweet, she could easily find another. As for I…
"You'll prune if you stay any longer, Bo-chan." Sebastian called, breaking me  from my thoughts.
"Fine." I muttered stepping from the tub. Catching sight of the marking on my back from our contract before Sebastian began to towel me off. Why did it not disappear?
"You've been silent all night, is there something troubling you?"
"Just reminiscing." I replied as I let him pull on my nightshirt, and button it.
Sebastian chuckled as he light the was to the bedroom with candles.
I climbed into bed, sitting against the pillows as I stared off.
"Sebastian…" I  began my chest tighten like when I would suffer from my asthma. "Why are you still here?"
Sebastian placed the candles down as he placed a knee on the bed crawling toward me.
I don't understand my feelings!
What do I want him to say? What do I want him to do?
"You can no longer have my soul. Why do you stay? Can you not leave?"
Sebastian moved that gloved hand to his mouth pulling off the white cloth. As his naked hand pushed back my hair and removed my eye patch. The markings beginning to glow and response to being so close together.
"This markings…" He replied our lips ghosting across each other. "we are bound together."
So like him, that hell of a butler.
"So my life is forever your's?" I questioned.
"And you are mine." He whispered in my ear.
Sighing deeply I thought back on my human life. I had no regrets, nothing that held me back. I closed all of my loose ends. Everything was settles, my parents avenged, my dear Aunt Red resting in peace, and Elizabeth taken care of. I had gotten everything I needed from the contracted, my revenge, and in this new life I choose to start with none.
"It's not wise to play games that make me  sick, demon." I scoffed. Before closing the gap between us. Bruising and clumsy but satisfying, much like how I use to be. I pulled away watching his eyes glow.
"It seems you still have traces of your humanity. We could solve that."
"Not now," I muttered moving back to rest against the pillows. "I believe that I'll be going to sleep now."
Sebastian made the move to get off the bed, walking over to the window as he began to close the curtains.
"Before you say anything, I know that demon's don't require sleep." I scoffed my eyes watching his every movement as he closed the left.
That smirk found it's self on his lips again, "It seems you can read my mind."
"You often repeat yourself." I stated closing my eyes as he shut the other. Hearing his footsteps make there way back to the candle, then the push of his breath as he blew out the lights. The rustle of clothes as he turned to leave the room.
"Sweet Dream, Bo-chan." He called to the dark, knowing that I hated when he told me that.
I opened my eyes to look around the dark room.
"Sebastian," I called, pulling the covers to my shoulders. Embarrassed about the wrong thing. "Stay until I fall asleep."
"I never left." He stated quickly, as I felt the bed move under the weight of him sitting.
  I felt that same hand, touching my face and hair. I'm not sure if I'll sleep or hang on to this last moment of humanity. In my dreams I could pretend that I was still pretend that I had my human life, and continue peacefully on with it. Should I really try and hang onto it?
"Bo-chan?"
"What?" I groaned covering my eyes with my arm, as I laid facing the ceiling.
"Happy Birthday."
Who had I been fooling, my humanity was lost the very moment I made that deal. The moment the contract appeared on my skin and on my right eye. Why should I pretend to hang onto something I'm so clearly not?
"Take it away…" I began.
"Are you sure? There's no…"
"That is an order!" I called eyes flashing as his reacted to mine.
"Yes my Lord-o."
Lips descending against mine, a small amount of pain quickly filled with something I never knew I needed, or knew was missing.
This was my order!
"My Lord?" He questioned  pulling away.
"My perfect order."
Sebastian chuckled as he stroked my hair exposing my face to his. Once again leaning forward.
Right before me all along was My Perfect Order.